Dispatch - Mission

At times when your everything has come to a stop, all you want is for the rest of the world to ackowledge this and stop with you.  However, though a few may slow down to stare at you, most will continue to march forth in this journey that we call life.  You'll feel a multitude of emotions as you feel left behind, feeling unable to continue.  You curse others and even yourself, as you sit your butt down and cry.  Soon though, your tears dry and you realize that it's time to get up.  You bite your teeth and you find courage to move on.  It's hard at first.  Everything seems new and different.  As you look ahead to see the distance you've to make up you realize how far you've fell behind.  Life is hard.  You whine.  You complain.  Soon after you get off your butt and get going, you realize that you're not the only one hurting.  On your march, you see others who've also fallen.   You also realize that you've many things to be thankful for.  Others have and had it far worse than you.  They've fallen hard.  As you become more aware, you feel grateful.  There are so many things that you were allowed and feel ashamed.  All the thoughts you've once had, the curses you screamed.  Your face fill with blush and you realize that while you were looking ahead, looking at the ones who've left you behind, blindly screaming and cursing, He was there patiently waiting.  My friends were also there patiently praying for me. 

Circumstances aren't perfect, but I'm with joy.